An Indifferent World
Jun. 19th, 2018 08:18 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
vovatOkay, so what is there to say? I'm nervous about moving, which we're going to have to do soon. One of our friends, one of maybe three people in the city who ever invite us to anything, is moving across the country. We went to her farewell party at a karaoke bar last week, but neither of us sang anything. I wasn't really that fond of the setup or the selection. Speaking of performing, I've been asked to participate in a few panels at the upcoming OzCon, which is cool. It's weird because I'm really socially awkward but don't so much mind public speaking. I'd rather not watch any audio or video of myself, though. I was thinking recently how I don't do well with embarrassment, and I guess nobody does, but some people can laugh about embarrassing moments in their past. For me, even if it's something fairly minor, it still usually bothers me when I think of it later on. I'm pretty open about my flaws, but I don't like to give specific examples. I've made thoughtless offhand comments in the past that really bothered people, and I do genuinely want to be liked. I guess even more than that, I want to be appreciated. Whenever I see comments about cutting out toxic people on social media, they have a valid point, but I tend to be worried I'll be one of the ones cut out, and it bothers me more than it probably should. Not that I think I'm toxic, but nobody thinks that of themselves. Even Britney Spears was singing it about another person. I've occasionally been blocked on Twitter, not realizing it until I replied to something. I've never known it be by someone who actually has any idea who I am, but it still bothers me that I'm apparently that annoying. Or are they just the sort of people who overdo blocking, or who have been trolled so much that they just do it without thinking? I wouldn't be offended if Donald Trump blocked me, although he's apparently breaking the law by doing so, at least if he does it with his presidential account. It shouldn't amaze me how many people still support him, or at least don't actively oppose him, but it's really depressing.
I probably would have gone to the Mermaid Parade on Saturday if I'd been in town. Amanda Palmer was the Queen Mermaid, which I still kind of think should be Queen Salacia, although that makes her sound like a salty bitch. I was away, however, celebrating my uncle-in-law's seventieth birthday by visiting the Cape May Zoo and eating at Red Lobster.
That night, Beth and I watched the XTC documentary This Is Pop, but I think I'll make that its own post. I also finally beat that smug jackass Marcello in Dragon Quest VIII, and I think I'm near the end of the game.
That doesn't necessarily mean I'll finish soon, though; there are several games where I basically gave up after repeated deaths in the final dungeon. I started playing Final Fantasy IX on PC, but haven't really gotten anywhere yet. It's weird using keyboard controls since I'm so used to playing RPGs on consoles, even though they were on PCs first. And it seems like my characters are dying a lot, although resurrection isn't that difficult. I'm probably going to get Dragon Quest XI for PC, since there isn't going to be a 3DS release outside Japan.
I probably would have gone to the Mermaid Parade on Saturday if I'd been in town. Amanda Palmer was the Queen Mermaid, which I still kind of think should be Queen Salacia, although that makes her sound like a salty bitch. I was away, however, celebrating my uncle-in-law's seventieth birthday by visiting the Cape May Zoo and eating at Red Lobster.
That night, Beth and I watched the XTC documentary This Is Pop, but I think I'll make that its own post. I also finally beat that smug jackass Marcello in Dragon Quest VIII, and I think I'm near the end of the game.
That doesn't necessarily mean I'll finish soon, though; there are several games where I basically gave up after repeated deaths in the final dungeon. I started playing Final Fantasy IX on PC, but haven't really gotten anywhere yet. It's weird using keyboard controls since I'm so used to playing RPGs on consoles, even though they were on PCs first. And it seems like my characters are dying a lot, although resurrection isn't that difficult. I'm probably going to get Dragon Quest XI for PC, since there isn't going to be a 3DS release outside Japan.
