Being Schooled

[vovat]

Dreams about going back to school and being unprepared are incredibly common, and I'm no exception to this rule. Lately, I've had quite a few dreams where I was in high school. Eventually, I'd realize I'd already graduated from college, but for some reason I didn't have enough credits to finish high school. I don't think it really works that way. In the dream I had last night, it was the last day of high school, but I'd just been on vacation, and missed several of my exams. For some reason, instead of trying to make them up, I was just going to wait and see if the school would let me graduate without them. The one exam I had left was a history one, but when I got to the classroom, the teacher was talking about other things, and I just wanted to get the exam over with. Also, I had trouble opening my locker, and later in the dream I had trouble closing it. I thought I'd cleaned all the stuff out of it, but there were still some speakers and a microphone in there. And in another collision of dreams and reality, I remembered I had a car, but for some reason I hadn't brought it to school. That's pretty much all I can remember from that dream, but a later one involved being afraid that I'd have to repeat a year of college.

When I woke up, I had to wonder if there was any connection between these dreams and my regrets associated with college. While I had absolutely no doubt that I'd graduate successfully from high school, I WAS kind of worried about finishing college on time. I did kind of a half-assed job in my senior seminar, and that was for my major. I ended up with a C, one of only two I received in my time in college, but I had to wonder what would happen if I hadn't gotten the C. Would there have been a way to retake that one class without going all the way back to western Pennsylvania? The thing is, I kind of wish I HAD had a second chance at the seminar, because I think I would have done a lot better if it had been the only school-related thing I had to do. As it was, due to poor planning on my part, I was taking eighteen credits in my last semester. While I did graduate on time, I'm still kind of ashamed of that situation. Maybe it's a stretch to associate that with my back-to-school dreams, since everyone has those and not everyone had trouble with one particular class in their last semester, but it reminded me of that.

Comments

[rockinlibrarian.livejournal.com]

WELL (putting on the dream interpreter's hat, which I haven't worn in a long time, unless you count the time I wore it IN a dream the other night and was telling someone else that some sort of character that was present obviously represented the superego, except I can't remember what sort of character that was now nor what it was trying to tell me), back to school dreams are far more likely to represent things you are learning or need to be learning RIGHT NOW rather than something you could have learned better one time long ago-- unless that something IS something you still need to work on learning now. Say, you had particular trouble trying to figure out a certain kind of relationship at one point in your life, and are still working on that now-- you may find yourself dreaming about the academic school you were in the LAST time you were also learning your role in that same sort of relationship, etc.

In my back to school dreams lately, my biggest worry seems to be that I can't remember what my schedule is supposed to be, which is probably some subconscious comment on my time-management skills.

[vilajunkie.livejournal.com]

Have you discussed some of these dreams with your therapist yet? If not, maybe you should.

[vovat.livejournal.com]

Oddly enough, I hadn't previously thought of that!

[blue-sonya.livejournal.com]

I usually dream of things that I don't voice out to anyone, so its a good thing you posted it on your blog to get it off your chest.
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[vovat.livejournal.com]

There are some dreams I don't discuss due to embarrassment, but otherwise I'm usually fine with sharing.